Psalm 119 X: Mine eyes prevent the night watches...

From Psalms

Psalm 119:145-160
Qoph
¹⁴⁵I cried with my whole heart; hear me, O Lord:
      I will keep thy statutes.
¹⁴⁶I cried unto thee; save me,
      and I shall keep thy testimonies.
¹⁴⁷I prevented the dawning of the morning, and cried:
      I hoped in thy word.
¹⁴⁸Mine eyes prevent the night watches,
      that I might meditate in thy word.
¹⁴⁹Hear my voice according unto thy lovingkindness:
      O Lord, quicken me according to thy judgment.
¹⁵⁰They draw nigh that follow after mischief:
      they are far from thy law.
¹⁵¹Thou art near, O Lord;
      and all thy commandments are truth.
¹⁵²Concerning thy testimonies, I have known of old that
      thou hast founded them for ever.

Resh
¹⁵³Consider mine affliction, and deliver me:
     for I do not forget thy law.
¹⁵⁴Plead my cause, and deliver me:
      quicken me according to thy word.
¹⁵⁵Salvation is far from the wicked:
      for they seek not thy statutes.
¹⁵⁶Great are thy tender mercies, O Lord:
      quicken me according to thy judgments.
¹⁵⁷Many are my persecutors and mine enemies;
      yet do I not decline from thy testimonies.
¹⁵⁸I beheld the transgressors, and was grieved;
      because they kept not thy word.
¹⁵⁹Consider how I love thy precepts:
      quicken me, O Lord, according to thy lovingkindness.
¹⁶⁰Thy word is true from the beginning:
      and every one of thy righteous judgments endureth for ever.

The distress of my addiction, my affliction, keeps me up at night and makes me wake early in the morning.  I pray that God considers my affliction, my addiction, and delivers me.  For in these hours when I have trouble sleeping I mediate on His word.  In His word I find his tender mercies.  Have grace on me, not according to the time I spend on these prayers, but according to your mercy.  Your word is true from the beginning and every word is righteous and eternal.

Thank you Lord for giving me these prayers to live by when I have trouble in my life.  A place to turn to that keeps me focused on your Love and away from the evils of my addiction.  These prayers bring me a Peace that I may trust in, a Hope that I can rely on, a Rock I can rest on.  When the world seems to against me these things support me and I know I am not alone.  May I never forget about these prayers that give me the strength and courage I need in my recovery and my day to day struggles.  Amen.

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