Psalm 18 (KJV) - Part 3: Thou hast subdued that which rises up against me

From Psalms

Psalm 18:36-50
³⁶Thou hast enlarged my steps under me,
      that my feet did not slip.

³⁷I have pursued mine enemies, and overtaken them:
      neither did I turn again till they were consumed.
³⁸I have wounded them that they were not able to rise:
      they are fallen under my feet.
³⁹For thou hast girded me with strength unto the battle:
      thou hast subdued under me those that rose up against me.
⁴⁰Thou hast also given me the necks of mine enemies;
      that I might destroy them that hate me.
⁴¹They cried, but there was none to save them:
      even unto the LORD, but he answered them not.
⁴²Then did I beat them small as the dust before the wind:
      I did cast them out as the dirt in the streets.

⁴³Thou hast delivered me from the strivings of the people;
      and thou hast made me the head of the heathen:
      a people whom I have not known shall serve me.
⁴⁴As soon as they hear of me, they shall obey me:
      the strangers shall submit themselves unto me.
⁴⁵The strangers shall fade away,
      and be afraid out of their close places.

⁴⁶The LORD liveth; and blessed be my rock;
      and let the God of my salvation be exalted.

⁴⁷It is God that avengeth me,
      and subdueth the people under me.
⁴⁸He delivereth me from mine enemies:
yea, thou liftest me up above those that rise up against me:
      thou hast delivered me from the violent man.
⁴⁹Therefore will I give thanks unto thee, O LORD,
      among the heathen, and sing praises unto thy name.
⁵⁰Great deliverance giveth he to his king;
      and sheweth mercy to his anointed,
      to David, and to his seed for evermore.

Hmmm...this last section of Psalm 18 is largely about fighting, war, battle, destruction...not the kind of things I look to my God for.  A God of love, mercy, and grace.  Even from proverbial sense, to make my enemy (or enemies) which I conquer my addiction I can't even say that I beat into dust.  Nor can I say I have been my addiction's neck.  My addiction, it seems is something I will have to live with for the rest of my life.

However, I suppose, on a daily level I am victorious over my addiction, thanks to my God.  This is a battle I fight on a daily basis.  The temptations and urges have not left, and from what I hear at meetings, will never leave.  Like a spark that can re-ignite a fire my addictions sits and smolders.  God willing I will be able to keep it from flaring up.  In that sense God has subdued my addiction, which rises up against me.

I just get better at understanding the addiction and knowing how to manage and avoid the temptations.  Truly it is only with my God's support that I am able to recover.  As it says here in verse 46 He is my rock.  For that reason I exalt the God of my salvation - Hallelujah, Praise the Lord.

Thanks for letting me share.